I can't sleep just yet. Tomorrow I will leave for Tokyo, Japan! Can't believe the day has finally come, what happened to the last months??
Today was an ordinary Sunday but I had a lot of last things to do. Like packing the last stuff, double check the flight ticket, passport and visa! I also shipped the two packages with my winter clothing and got myself some yen to have for the first days!
I also, funny enough, also made omurice for dinner today because my mom really wanted to eat it one more time! I also thought her how to make it herself!
But after finishing watching midsummer murders as we always do we said good night and my mother started to cry A LOT. It was so so so so hard for me in that moment. I cried a lot as well and just felt.. heart broken. Seeing your mom cry might be the worst thing ever... I tried my best to stay positive and console her, but after wards I felt so sad myself here in my room. Why am I doing this again? Do I really want to do this? and these feelings and thoughts is so new to me, I felt nothing like this the first time I went to Japan.. this time is on a whole other emotional scale!! After talking to a friend I now feel better, but it's still hard. I also know that tomorrow probably will be even worse... but it's just a part I have to get through. I know I will and my mom will as well. It's not goodbye forever, we will see each other soon enough again. I'm sure!!
So, even if it might be hard and sad times, I'm now ready to face it head on! This goodbye is the beginning of something new and I'm so curious to see that new things I will learn about myself and who I want to be and how I want to live my life. Because its my life and I only got one so lets go for it!!
See you guys soon again!
Hugs!
〜Living the dream〜
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